7 weeks

Well im so scared!

Im coming up to the exact weekend I learnt we were loosing our last baby :( When I started bleeding.

Im at the same day of the week I turned 7 weeks last time, so im abit worried.

I still have symptoms where as I did'nt last time, so I suppose thats something to keep me going on.

I am mega hungry in the morning and gag at nasty things, im shatterd (mainly due to Oli waking in the night) and my tummy is abit achy.

Really annoyed though that im going to have to clear the leaves in the garden (huge pile), and have no idea what thats going to do to my already hard working body, Paul still hasn't done it, so will have to do it myself!

Then again he has a hard day job and is working hard (roll eyes) so I shouldn't really expect him too should I?

Well enough of ranting about him!

Its exciting to see what the develoment of the baby is like, its coming to the stage where its classed as a fetus now, starting to look and take more of a shape of a human rather than some alien from out of space!

Oli seems to be more demanding lately, I think shes picked up on the fact that I have less energy and is taking full advantage, the joys!


Midwife rang on Wed, shes coming out on the 15th to fill out the rest of the green book and to talk about what I want to do etc, which is great, i'm looking forward to it!

Still definatly want a water birth at home, I was looking at birth pools last night and the inflatable ones look the best, so I will have a search round nearer the time.

Have been reading lots of water birth stories on homebirth.org and they all sound exaclty how I would want my birth to go this time, dont really want to go hospital again, its horrible and they dont give a damn!

Will update when reached 8 weeks, hopefully with good news!.

Tasha